I stumbled upon this quote the other day while I was browsing Pinterest.com, and it seemed to go perfectly along with my thoughts throughout the past few weeks. As we started this exciting new year, David and I had specific goals and plans and thoughts on exactly how we were going to achieve them. However as January progressed, our lives definitely did not go according to plan. The weekend of the New Year I got sick with an ear infection / cold. I found out my 4 week fitness boot camp was postponed until February, which I counted as a blessing since I hadn’t been feeling well. Our youngest son has been really sick almost the entire month, which means a lot of sleepless nights for us. Since this was originally my month to kick caffeine, it turned out to be a lot harder than I had planned considering aforementioned sleepless nights. Needless to say, I haven’t totally kicked caffeine yet. My fitness boot camp was again postponed, until May this time. On top of those adaptations to our goals this month, we struggled with some challenges we never imagined we’d have to face as a family.
As I was reflecting on the events this month, I realized I am pretty grateful things didn’t go according to plan. Because I’m still motivated and determined despite the challenges, it makes my goals feel more “real” and gives me more confidence in my ability to achieve them. It gives us the opportunity to be truly tenacious.
From a broader perspective, the lesson learned from that quote has been a long time developing. Over and over again throughout the past few years, life has kindly (and not so kindly at times) smacked me in the face, reminding me of that exactly. Sometimes my views have been so narrow. I have only been willing to see the exact path I wanted my life to take while I fought against what felt like nudges off of it, not realizing that I was completely blind to the stunning, amazing, wonderful path life has been trying to nudge me toward – the one that was waiting for me.
I feel it’s also related to something David’s father spoke to me about last week: providence, which means “divine government”. God can see the entire big picture of our lives, and it is so silly to think I can plan every detail of my life with my narrow perspective. One of my goals this year is to allow Him to guide me through the life He wants me to live, instead of fighting against Him to live the life I had planned.
I hope this quote provoked some thoughts, and I’d love to hear them.